its beginning

to look a lot like Christmas.  I am pretty excited this year.  I basically have my shopping done and I am looking forward to just chillin from now until the big day.  This year is also fun because some of the things I, I mean Santa got for my daughter were actually things I kinda wanted for her to have.  The sheepskin rug, although not fun for her will look amazing in her playroom, and so will the gym like locker, and the hugglepod will get a lot of use from me.  And to be able to remind her that santa knows if she has been bad or good works like a charm.

rolling pebble

Over 25 years ago I watched a documentary of 20 years of Rolling Stone.  Neil Young mesmerized me for decades, with a couple of sentences.  He explained that when he is giving a concert that he loved taking his crowds to the limit of the experience.  Going on to say that just when the crowd was at the peak of their experience, it was time for him to then REALLY take the audience to a place they didn't know they could get from  a performance.    I have literally applied this principle to my life for over 25 years, and so it goes again.  During a day with my 3 and a half year old we start out slow, we lay in bed a chit chat a little bit...slowly she begins to demand food.  We then usually go for a sweet in the morning to curb cravings the rest of the day.  Around noon we have maybe had a small discussion about suckers,   but we are in the first set of the concert and it is fun.  Afternoon when it time for drum solos band introductions and breaks we are bored and we wait for the arrival of our third member.  Then bam dinner time, bath time, crazy run around naked time, then the essential oils are released to aid in slumber, and as the night is coming to a close you realize this was one great show.  Everyday being a parent can be that way, you are at the top of the experience, ready to head for the hills and then boom there's more, and so you rock a  little more because you still have it to give.....and then one more encore!  The vibe is quiet and you feel like you shared something special.

cool burn

Growing up summer had a magical note to it.  Everyday was new,  the music was good.....I had amazing summers, and then I didn't, now they are back.  I was sitting in a parking lot tonight, listening to the 70's at 7 and people watching.  A kid maybe 19 or so strums by my car on his skateboard,  Gets himself a soda and proceeds to wow me as he skates through a flat canvas of a parking lot as the sun sets very low in the sky.  And there you have it, how I got my summer back. 

supper moon

The star that is closest to our earth, the sun is what we call it, lit up the moon so beautifully on Saturday that I did not want it to ever go away.   We were at the lake and the moon crept up over the trees.  When something like that is upon you everything is so small.  Like a small 3 year old who  chased it through the sky for a couple of hours.  Leaving on Sunday was so hard because the little girl was so sad that she sat in the middle of camp as sort of a protest.  A mean dog even barked at her and she held her ground.  She said I like camping and sleeping in the cabinet. 

Tonight we took a late drive to settle my nerves.  We had been cruising a round for awhile when my sweet baby girl broke into song.  ....twinkle twinkle...you know the tune.....I was blown away....but over the past couple of days I have been hearing little bits of singing....this was such a nice treat.   Three day weekends are wonderful family time, but late into day 3 and I am a little ready for routine again.    and speaking of routine or lack of, the entire day of the 4th came and went with family, food, decorations, and lots of fireworks...and this lady did not take a single picture....I was busy, darn busy all day and it slipped my mind I guess...and for the first time ever I made really good beans and pot salad.    up above the world so high like a diamond in the sky

little bit while

I  have one amazing 3 year old.  She is kind to strangers, has manners, gets her feelings hurt at the playground, and is complimentary to her counter parts.  Loves sceaming when she spots a plane in the sky, and can hear a train 3 miles away.  Tries all kinds of new food and for no  particular reason at all tells me and her dad that she loves us.  So why in the hell do I mention to people that she was not much of a sleeper when she was a baby, or why do I wish she would still nap everyday.   Or why when  strangers tell me what a great kid she is don't I just say "yes"   because if I recall I usually tell people I hardly know that toy time is out of control at our house...or I tell people of her love for the word no,  or I say she is not so great when she is taking 2 hours to put on her jammers.   I suck right now for this....and I really and not wanting other mothers to make me feel better by exchanging 3 year old behaviors stories...but it would be fun....I think I am a better mom because she was up every 90 minutes on the dot for a long time....if she takes a nap these days she might miss something......its fun for her to run around naked from us with her pj's in our hanks....and she likes telling me no...she is getting her voice.....I am on her team...I love her for whatever

The three year old that I spend roughly 22 hours a day with has been a little stinker lately.   Not to worry she is totally normal...but what about me?  I mumble stuff to myself that I cant say to her face...like ya  I know you want cereal you mentioned it 14 times in the last 30 seco nds.   oh and big shocker you don't want to brush you teeth, and really pajamas are out of the question for at least an hour after the bath.   Im convinced I am raising the biggest stinker of em all.....but really she is just trying to get in sync with her little body changes.  I am going to try and divert her moods with legos I guess because the fun bonus will be to step on one while on my way to get a drink of milk  Alone