remember at Sams when I didnt love you

My baby girl has been in a real remembering kind of way....she is reliving her baby days,  she wants to sit in her little car seat, wants me to hold her like a baby, I fed her some pie today like a baby.  But I like this phase...and speaking of remembering I made her a time capsule today.  There is artwork from when I was in first grade and papers I wrote in college, and momentos from all the years in between.  I have always been a nostalgia kind of person and I guess I hope she is too....but what a great weekend we had...Sage climbed all over tombstones today...I was ok with it   because 1 she is 3 and in my opinion what a great way to honor the dead.

baby just not tired

I myself have always been a sleeper,  I used to enjoy naps for any ol reason.  So how in the world is this sweet little girl mine?  Everyday I strive to wear her out.  She is only 3 how in the world can she possible rock steady for 12 hours? 

                                                                                                   

Mother's day......my facebook newsfeed is filled with posts of people thanking their mothers.   This is a difficult day for me.  I love my mom, and I have spent my life thinking she was the best mother ever,  I am serious about this...I always thought the other moms I knew were shams, that they in no way even came close to being the kind of mother mine was.   But my mom and I had a few challenges along the way, and I don't mean small challenges.  I have always been pretty proud of how we got through things, I remember some New Years Eves when we were so happy to have a year behind us so we could start again only to be saying the same thing when the next NYE came around.   What makes a good mom?  one that does homework with their child every night?  one who guides their child and heavily influences their decisions, one who totally devotes their life to raising their child?  one who stays away from alcohol and other substances until their child leaves the house?  one who remains married even if she is miserable?  one who makes her child finish college right after high school?   what I am getting at is that my mom did none of the above             she trusted me enough to have me make my own choices from a very young age, but along the way we shopped, laughed, ate good food, took trips, planted flowers, cried, watched her mother grow old and die, went through some tough relationships, worked together...I mean the list goes on...........
At a recent high school reunion several people asked how my mom was and I told them all the same thing..."she's great"  one had the balls to say to me "she was so beautiful"  as to which I replied "she still is" 
back to the facebook newsfeed....I have a bunch of optimists on my friends list and they all post the inspirational sayings...reminding us not to judge, not to live in the past, we are not defined by our mistakes....and the one about we don't know what plan He has for everyone....
I guess what I am getting at is this...mothers day was over an hour ago...I had a great day with my mom on Saturday....looking back I never waivered in my feelings for my mom, but I think others might have judged her and it makes me sad.

3 wheeling

This last week was everything a week should be.  Fun, exhausting, inspired, and towards the end of the week really really warm.  But the highlight was seeing my sweet baby girl peddle her tricycle.  She preferred to do this naked....of course.